behind these dark walls desire consumes us unrequited love promiscuous purity unadulterated hate hiding, loving, wreathing pain, a stream of nothingness poured upon me amidst a never ending waterfall a glimmer of hope twinkles beneath the night sky looking upon the moon i know that we are looking at the same one although it feels like eternity i know that the day will come in the meantime i feel endlessly alone partially loving, partially resenting, endless confusion and unknowing your life bound to an entity that i detest a symbol of death, a beacon of demise a prophecy of nothing unfulfilled while i wait and stay alone drenched in lies and temptation serpentine seduction lingering before me i took a bite of the apple in the garden and so i had my fall

it's not like you can just put a band aid on the scar and patch it up, make it heal forever it's a wound that takes time to heal and that's the only solution you just keep trudging along, paving a new path, until eventually, you find your way I'm a puzzle piece forever missing, an unsolved mystery until God knows when

pushing

Sometimes all I can do is push forward, When I really want to push back I feel like I'm living in an organized chaos Where I have a strict schedule, a strict plan for the future, A planned map of exactly where I want to go, and I feel like that map is now burning I feel like a spinning compass, a lost traveler, A sky without a North star to guide, A ship without a captain, A soul without another to unite A barren wasteland, with emptiness echoing across the meadow A tumbleweed drifting off into the distance A dandelion seed flying into the wind A girl who thinks she's got it together But really doesn't have a clue And so the clock ticks, the wheels turn, the pendulum swings And only tomorrow will tell What will come of us